If I could write a letter to me on the day I was diagnosed...

Take a deep breath... Today is going to be a difficult one I can promise you that. Please remember how strong you have always been. You are going to have to get stronger. Today you are going to feel a sense of relief. You're going to feel like the labels are going to float away. You'll get excited thinking that you'll no longer be seen as lazy and unmotivated, that everything will suddenly get better. The excitement will quickly fade. Within the next 24 hours you will feel just about every emotion you've ever felt but it will be scrambled and mushed into a crazy massive slap in the face. Then you're going to cry...
A lot...
And then some more..
You will stuff your face full of articles and blogs and research and learn as much as you possibly can. You will focus so much energy on helping your family to understand, more energy than you have at your disposal, and eventually you'll give up. In giving up this fight you'll finally realize that the energy didn't need to be expelled. You'll realize again, like you have countless times in the past, that your family is unlike any other and they will always love and support you no matter the situation. Then you will smile and thank God for his endless blessings.
You will begin to talk to God more than before. You will thank Him everyday for the ways he has blessed you and pray that he helps you to recognize the blessings you overlook.
You will try different medications that will take you on a year long crazy ride. It will test your faith, your marriage, your job and make you question your ability to be a good mommy. 

Don't worry dear, you are stronger than you know and when you cannot be strong any longer you'll fall into the open arms of a man who will give you every last ounce of his. You'll realize an entirely new love, and again you will smile... and then you'll hang your head and thank God for those blessings you didn't see.
You're going to have bad days, and worse ones... You'll have great ones too.
You will begin to peel back all of the pain and resentment that you have let build up around your spirit. You will stop breaking yourself down and force yourself to step back into the light. Then you will smile... And you'll  drop to your knees and thank God for the blessings you couldn't see...
and you will be alright, I promise.